Looking for fun

I am Yellow! It took me a while to admit it. In fact I took the test several times, because I couldn’t believe it to be true. It was my wonderful Blue cousin who first told me about the Hartman Personality Profile and test  – and said it seems to be quite accurate in its assessment of personalities.

My cousin and I were enjoying a day at Glen Ivy Spa, California, when she told me how insightful and in fact useful the test and profile had been to her. She explained about four core motivations, referred to by colors in the Hartman test. It sounded very interesting so I decided that I would find out more about it later. But then I forgot about it. Until I got stuck in Phnom Penh, Cambodia, for a few days (I have forgotten why I was stuck there). My colleagues there had just bought the book “The People Code” by Dr. Hartman, and now I got a chance to read it. I read it twice! And I felt I learned a lot about myself – stuff I had tried to suppress. And I started to understand why communication with some people seems easy and others so difficult.

The worst thing for me to accept was that I am motivated by FUN. Well, I know that am embracing life, live in the present tense and love playful interaction. But I want to be motivated by peace or intimacy or responsibility – not fun. It sounds… irresponsible and shallow.

But I am starting to accept it and that in fact creates new energy. And I see more clearly both the positive and negative sides of it. To quote a bit from the report from the test: “While Yellows are carefree, they are sensitive and highly alert to other’s agendas to control them. Yellows typically carry within themselves the gift of a good heart …  Easily distracted, they can never sit still for long. Yellows are charismatic, spontaneous and positive, but can also be irresponsible, obnoxious and forgetful.”

From here, I definitely need to develop my character. But while doing that, I will also be looking for fun and enjoy life.